Friday, April 3, 2020

Part 1: travel and arrival (START HERE)


Part 1: travel and arrival

(NOTE…the name of the cutter has been removed at his request and replaced with Co****)

March 14, 2020, 9:00 am

I woke up this morning knowing that by the end of the day, my penis would be cut off.  What a crazy thing to think.  So hard to believe.  I had been wearing a chastity cage for the past few days.  My husband removed it when we woke up…to ‘let it free one last time.’  I showered as I do every morning and realized that it was the last morning to wash between my legs and feel the cock that I disliked so much.  Taking the Uber to the airport with my husband, continued the feeling of ‘wow…this is really happening’ so hard to believe.  My husband (Josh) was thrilled, exciting, grinning like a kid, haha.  It was sort of fun to see that.

2:30 pm

Our flight was uneventful, but for the general strange mood at the airport due to rising concerns over COVID19.  Now and then, as I tried to watch a movie on the plane, it would hit me again that this wasn’t a typical vacation or business trip.  I’m worried not about living without my cock…that will be fine…only some concerns about the penectomy process itself.  It’s a bit scary to hand yourself over to a cutter for something like this.  Husband was still smiling, haha.  He told me he’s proud of me.  That’s sweet.

We got the rental car and began the drive into rural PA.  We are from Florida…I don’t have many clothes for northeastern March.  We kept the heat blasting and luckily it wasn’t not too cold.  At some point on the highway, I was thinking about the coming penectomy.  Strangely, while it scared me, it made me hard.  I touched the erection through my pants, knowing it was very nearly my last.  What a fucking crazy thought.  Husband noticed me touch myself and saw the ‘tent.’  He asked ‘what’s that about?’.  I told him I’m both scared and excited and that I don’t know what that is about.  I noticed that my eyes are tearing up.  He pulled over and looked at me.  He told me that if I’m not sure, or if I’m doing this only for him, etc. that we can turn around and go home.  That it is totally ok and also totally ok to be scared.  This was all just about the sweetest thing ever.  He’s pretty dom…he’s not an emotional guy, but he was totally serious right then.  I told him it was ok.  I was scared, but also knew that I wanted it.  He told me how much I mean to him, how much he loves me…yes totally sappy, haha.  Then he said “ok…the decision is made.  We are going through with it and I’m just here now to make sure that you follow through and to keep you safe.  Let’s go.”  He held my hand for nearly all of the remaining drive.

5:45 pm

We had arranged to meet the cutter (whose name is Co****) at a small restaurant which he said was about 20 minutes from his place.  He does not allow any clients to come directly to his place so that he cannot later be found again.  We understood that we would be transported from here to his house/farm.  We walked in and found him at a corner table as he said we would.  We introduced ourselves and sat…my head was spinning.  A waiter came to the table with a glass of water for me, a drink for Co**** and asked my husband what he would like.  When he left, Co**** explained that the owner is a friend of his and knows what’s going on and that it is ok.

Co**** was very calming and business like at this point, which was really helpful.  He told me to just relax…that he understood what I was going through, but that he was confident that I knew what I was doing and that it was right.  He asked my husband if he had any questions (he didn’t).  He asked if we had the paperwork and payment (we did).  I had signed the consent forms in advance, understanding that signing them meant no backing out.  My husband slid the folder containing the forms and an envelope of money across the table.  Co**** opened it and glanced at the form.  He smiled at me and said “Great. All looks good.”  He turned to Josh and said, “do you think that the precautions we talked about are needed?” I had no idea what this was about, but my husband said “yes, just to be safe.”  He put his hand on my leg and turned and said ‘don’t worry, everything is ok and I’m here through all of this.”  I believed him totally.  I told him that “I know” and told myself just to let go and let events unfold.  That was good advice.

Co**** put the folder away, sipped his drink, and proceeded into some small talk.  I’m not even sure what all we talked about, but I just went with it.  It was pleasant…three guys out having a drink on a Saturday night.  We laughed and my husband and Co**** in particular seemed to bond.  I liked him.  He’s very attractive…masculine, muscular, dark black hair, olive skin and just a bit of an accent.  Seriously sexy. 

They finished their drinks.  Co**** asked if we were ready to go, and we got up and went outside.  We retrieved our things from the car.  He told us that it was fine to leave it here, and he led us to a Suburban with blacked out windows.  He put our bags in the back and opened the back door.

As we climbed inside, and I noted that the windows were not dark tinted, but painted black, so you couldn’t see out.  There was a curtain closed between the front and middle row of seats.  Co**** told us to get comfortable and we would be there in about 20 minutes.  He closed the door, and then I heard him get in the front, start the motor and off we went.

We rode in silence for a while.  Josh squeezed my shoulder and told me I was doing great. I was just focused on leaving my mind blank…not thinking about what was coming.  The ride went surprisingly fast.  Co**** told us that we were there and pulled back the curtain.  We had pulled in a gravel driveway and there was a double electric gate opening in front of us.  We moved forward and the second gate opened.  We continued up the drive which winded through some trees.  When the trees cleared, we came to a large rather modern designed house and two other buildings, sort of like barns.  The SUV stopped next to one of these; Co**** got out and opened the back door.  We got out, and he led us towards a door in what seemed to be the lower level of the building.  The sweet smell of the country and farm animals hit my nose.  Several dogs barked.  Co**** told my husband that “we’ll get Marc settled and then go and have some dinner while my boys start to get him ready.” 

We entered a small room with a polished cement floor and painted cement block walls.  It was pleasantly warm. There was a metal door on the far wall, a bench along one side with some hooks on the walls and a table along the other.  There were two lidded cardboard storage boxes on the table.

Co**** slid one box towards me. “Take your clothes off and put them in the box.”  I hesitated for a second and looked at Josh.  This was suddenly very real.  My husband, very sternly, but not unkindly, nodded and said “Do it now.”  I swallowed and started to undress.  I was shaking a bit and my heart was racing.  As I undressed, Co**** hung his coat on one of the hooks; my husband did the same.  I put my clothes in the box and was a bit embarrassed that my cock was partially erect as I removed my underwear.  My underwear went in the box and Co**** replaced the lid.

“Josh is concerned that you might get cold feet and try to get away,” Co**** said calmly, “so we will make sure that cannot happen.  Please turn around and put your hands behind you.”  As I faced my husband, my hands were handcuffed behind me.  His eyes told me this was all ok.  “Good boy,” he said to me.  I could see his erection in his pants.  Co**** added ankle cuffs connected by about 18 inches of metal chain.  He removed some keys from his pocket and unlocked the metal door and directed me through it.

I entered a large room approximately 40 feet long and perhaps 20 feet wide.  The concrete floors and block walls continued here.  On the left wall there was a St. Andrew’s Cross and a number of metal rings in the wall.  A leather sling hung from the ceiling.  There was a bondage table and several padded horses with restraints. Along the right wall were 6 cells with chain link doors with cinder block dividers.  I was led to the second of these.  Inside was a low cot with a mattress and a blanket.

“My boys will be with you in about 15 minutes to prepare you,” Co**** said.  He closed the chain link door, secured it with a padlock, and headed back towards the door.  I called out for my husband; asked him not to leave. “You’ll be fine, boy. Just do as you’re told, and I will be back soon.” And they left.  The metal door slammed shut.

I stood looking at the door, naked and shackled in a cell.  I looked around the room again.  I noted that there was another regular door in the same wall where the metal door was.  I saw a set of double doors on the other end of the room.  I looked at all the bondage equipment.  I’m not a stranger to dungeon/playrooms, but this was intense stuff.  I was shaking, which I noticed because I could hear the chains on me rattling, and I let out a little cry.

This was when I realized that I wasn’t alone, as a voice from the next cell asked if I was ok.  I said I was, but that I was worried and nervous that my husband had left.  The guy in the next cell was John, and he was also there with his husband, and had just been castrated the previous day he told me.  He was comforting and distracted me with random talk even though I couldn’t see him.

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